Sunday, September 30, 2007

SlimQuick Extreme So Far

As I told you yesterday..I bought a fat burner , SlimQuick Extreme. Well I followed the instructions and started taking it. Now As recommended..I only took one this morning on an empty stomach with 8oz. of water..and in six hours I must take another. That's the dosing instructions for the first two days..then I'm suppose to take 2 tablets the same way on days 3 and 4. And then I have to up it to 3 tablets on days 5 & on. I don't feel jittery..but I did do my P90X Core Synergistics Workout, not all of it cause it's a butt kicker...But I did feel a little more energized and ready for it. So far since this is just the introductory testing dose...I like that one pill doesn't make me feel completely SPASTIC . But I'll have to wait to reserve my opinion completely once I up the dosage on Tuesday.

Since I have to take another dose in 6 hours... I will try to finish the P90x Core Synergistics .I mean why not use the energy it provides to try? This way..It will be my evening workout..and Maybe I can say that I made it through the entire DVD.

I hope all of you are having a great day. And I hope all of you are reaching your workout goals.

Fitness Tip Of The Day.~Fitness Magazines, keep them with you at work. If you actually have a LULL in your day at work, you can read them, an article or two here and there. I find that it helps me keep my mind on proper eating. So if I go out to lunch...I remember what I just read about certain foods, or how to "Dine Out" properly.

Saturday, September 29, 2007

Almost A Week

Hey fitness Bloggers...

Well..I've been away for almost a week. I was sore for a long time after doing that workout I told you about. Plus there have been a lot of things going on ..I fell off my workouts due to job interviews for a promotion, and getting to work late ,so that threw me off my Curves workout as well.. But I don't feel bad about it though. The week off gave me time to think and reflect about my fitness goals. I think I needed that time to step back and get the pressure off myself. I did do a few workouts..but not as intense.

As I said getting the pressure of is really uplifting. My hubby is so wonderful and supportive. I feel like I have to look my absolute best for him..it's one of the reasons that I workout...But I finally followed his advice and I took a break. He knows how badly I want to look the way he met me. But he told me not to kill myself for it. So...This is going to be a new week with a new attitude.

So..I will be restarting the P90X "Lean" program...this way it's done properly. I also settled on a fat Burner..I went with SlimQuick Extreme ..I did my online research , and felt that this was the one to try. I like that they have a detailed instruction booklet that doesn't give the illusion of "Pop This Pill & You Will Be Thin" sell. I appreciate the truth of the makers saying to that diet and exercise are the key.

So I'm ready for my program. I've cleaned the junk out of the house. If I want to snack..there are only fruits and veggies in the house. I'm making it a POINT to carry my lunch to work EVERYDAY..Not only to save money..but to have more control over what I eat and my calorie intake. My liquid intake is strictly water all day.. Crystal Light Raspberry Green Tea with my lunch or dinner...and maybe the occasional glass of Ocean-Spray Cranberry Juice...Or orange Juice. Nothing carbonated..and if the sugar intake is high....as in with the Cranberry Juice or Orange juice..at least the base has health benefits.

Now....I am a TRUE chocoholic, and it has been the hardest thing to give up. But of course, true addictions don't leave. They linger around to taunt and tempt....So let me tell you what I do in regards to my chocolate cravings. There is a deli inside the building where I go to Curves everyday on my lunch hour workout. They have the ABSOLUTE BEST chocolate chip cookies...made from scratch. They bake them everyday.and the smell WAFTS through the entire building. I simply pick a date to have them as a treat to myself. That day is every other 1st of the month payday. I skipped this month..so I'm not due til Dec 1st payday for the treat. ..This way I reward myself for my hard work , I get to indulge without over indulging. ..Now if I get the chocolate craving anytime in between... I buy a box of Raisinets Dark. I get the chocolate I crave , with the health benefits that raisins give. But I don't indulge too often.

So in my effort to return to normal..I will give a fitness tip of the day just to make me feel on track with the week to come.

Fitness Tip Of The Day ~ The next time you're at Target ,when you do your regular shopping , always pick up something that will be incorporated into your fitness goals. Whether it's a new sports bra, a set of hand weights, a new workout outfit. Something that will remind you to keep in mind the lifestyle you are trying to lead. We girls love a reason to buy and USE our new stuff. Make your fitness gear something regular like groceries.

Monday, September 24, 2007

Okay...So I Messed Up

So I decided after my disappointing Curves report card and not to mention the gross pics of myself that I posted yesterday.. to take my workouts up a notch and too a serious level. So I decided to start doing the P90X program that I originally brought for the hubby. I had did bits of it here and there, in conjunction with Turbo jam, and Slim N'6.

Well..I started on Sunday..with "Chest and Back" & "Ab Ripper X...It's the DVD's you start the Classic program according to the guide. I did those. They were intense and hard. But I then discovered that I should have started the P90X Lean..cause my main goal is weight -loss..and this sequence is more cardio based. I didn't think it a big deal..I figured..I'll just go to the next DVD in the "Lean" program..Unfortunately..my arms and shoulders are killing ME.

But In a GOOD WAY. All the chin-ups, pull-ups, and push ups have me in intense pain.

OWWW!!

Sunday, September 23, 2007

Okay..Here Are the Pics~OHH GAWD!!!








Okay..I need to kiss my hubby more. Cause I didn't know I looked this bad. Pictures really can bring the need to exercise home. And this certainly does it for me. I'm so embarrassed . I really feel like crying seeing this.

So... Here you have it.

My updates will come every Sunday with pics. I know for a fact I couldn't handle pics everyday.I hope you and I both see progress during this process.

False Ideas Of Beauty-Why Do We Buy Into It?




























I wanted to make this post for my own sanity I guess. I was sitting at home watching AMC. You know, old classic movies. And I was struck by the way the women in the movies looked. And I thought about how, the women who were the "Icons" of beauty & Sex..well truthfully couldn't probably get hired in today's industry. And would all be seen as "Fat" in today's world.

I mean take silent screen star Theda Bara here in her role as "Cleopatra"-In the black and white you see...Her trademark was she often played the role of a sexy, foul temptress whose beauty and dangerous allure led good-hearted men to their doom. Who do you think would be cast in this light and role today. Certainly not her. She's wouldn't even probably play the mother of such a character

Or take Mae West.. We all know that part of her appeal was her overt sexuality ..but men loved her body.true..she was more of the type of woman that men wanted to "tame". But none the less..she still was a woman with a voluptuous figure.

The same as Jean Harlow hear sitting in the swimsuit. She was a sex symbol of her time. It makes me wonder..I know essentially that it's someone's "JOB" to "SELL" to me and the rest of the public that "THIS" is the standard of beauty that "ALL" women should strive for..And I know that it's also the male dominated world's way of "oppression" by constantly making us not feel good about ourselves. But I was struck by the extreme dichotomy of then and the evolution to now.

And then you have the still sexy to this day Sophia Loren..a true Italian beauty. I mean boobies, hips , and a round bottom. She is still gorgeous today, and she's 73 year old.

For black women..there was Dorothy Dandridge. Not completely voluptuous..but her lean figure was quite hippy and feminine

Then of course you have Marilyn Monroe. Now isn't it ironic..this woman..who "Hollywood" still considers THE ICON OF SEX & BEAUTY. would probably never get her foot in the door. Now don't get me wrong...I know that part of her appeal..especially to men..is the IDEA of such a physically beautiful, and wanton sexual woman, who is very well known to be so desperate for a man or ANYONE to love her, that she often didn't care what pain they would put her through..as long as she was loved in the end. I mean most men are chauvinist deep down... So I understand that part. But I'm talking about the whole physical ideal. Her curvy hips , and wider round butt would be a liability today...Why the mixed signals?

Where it all seemed to change was when Twiggy, and the 60's mod look came along. No longer was your natural curves something to relish and love. Nope..basically..looking as pre pubescent was what the "Industry" wanted to "sell"...and it has somewhat spiraled from there... I mean from that point and on..you got women like Kate Moss completely everywhere.

Sure you got sprinkles of a more "normal" idea of thin with ladies like Cindy Crawford, and Tyra Banks...especially since showing your belly became the fashion, and required a trim look to pull it off. But they still had hips and luscious bodies that told the story of women who watched what they ate, exercised..but you could tell they didn't endanger their health and well being with starvation, anorexia , and cocaine.

And then recently you had women on the runways who literally were walking skeltons...
WHY..I mean you have Ana Reston, the Brazillian model who recently died of anorexia . This child was only 21. I mean..I find it sad that this young girl , who wanted so much to keep sending money home to her family killed herself doing it. And all because some designers want all women to look like coat hangers.

I also find it sad that actresses like Kate Winslet and Samantha Morton don't get as many roles..despite having more talent than a lot of the actresses out there..simply because they refuse to go on starvation diets to further their careers..only to possibly shorten their life spans. I admire that they refuse to do so.. I mean principles obviously mean something to them And they are willing to make those sacrifices..I dig that.

Now I'll go there about these three others.. Mariah Carey...Jennifer Lopez and Beyonce'. They all get on my nerves as celebrities. They are everywhere..and it's annoying.. But I must admit I do love that they are challenging the standards. I love that they are living up to the status quo of "Celebrity" but still have a natural realness to their physique. The curves are their..but the tightness and tone is their without the starved look. I love that Beyonce is the face of Armani. Don't get me wrong..I KNOW that he is simply "cashing in " on her popularity and using her to sell his stuff..But even he said he picked her, cause she looks like what women should look like.

But having said that ..and having posted all of these pics.. I wonder..WHY?..Why do we take our cues from here. I am usually the type of person who could careless what people think of me. But at the same time ..I am vain..and I want people to see me as beautiful. Not just inside..I know that is awful.. But who wants to NOT be thought of as "beautiful"?.. I know we are all victims of it. But I guess in the end ..I want us all to be not only pleasing to ourselves..but healthy and fit for anything that comes our way. You all know..my fitness inspiration is
Maggie Diubaldo.. This was the first pic I ever saw of her. And I thought..there's MY ideal.

And then I'm still annoyed..cause I'm still letting the media, and another person's ideal of beauty define mine...

(SIGH)

A PROUD SUNDAY-P90X Day 1

Hey Everyone...

So..as you well know..I was down on Friday. My Curves report card got to me. But I have picked my spirits back up and have vowed to "BRING IT" ala P90X. I have had this system for a few months. I brought it thinking of my hubby. He hasn't been consistent due to his working, but he loves it. I figured I would work some of it in my routines, in addition with Turbo jam, My Yoga, and my Slim n'6. But I saw the infomercial this weekend, and I thought..."Why not take on this system
So that's what I did. I went over the book again this weekend and decided to give my workout a whole new start...P90X style.

On the Roster -P90X Chest & Back & Ab Ripper X
The Chest and back is my considerable weak points. As I have practically NO upper body strength. This work out is a LOO LOO ! But I like how Tony Horton instructs. He lets you know to push your limits, but to also take breaks if you need. I did the whole video. I have some things to work on as the figures I wrote down tells me. It's required in the program to write down the reps and weights you use, so you can see your progress. But I am proud that despite the pain I felt, that I did it. The same with Ab Ripper ex.

So I will post about this program as I go through it.

Wish me luck.

Friday, September 21, 2007

My Curves Report card SUCKED

My Report card SUCKED. It says' I only lost 1 and a half pound and some other stuff. The instructor tried to make me feel better, by saying that I'm solidly built and that I'm likely gaining muscle.

I'm hoping that my waist being 1 inch larger is due to PMS bloat.. But I still can't help but think that it has to be wrong..simply because of the way my clothes are fitting. I told you all about my pants...Even another pair is looser.

It discouraged me..and I ALMOST..ALMOST bought some of the DELICIOUS cookies from the deli. But I resisted to eat emotionally. But anyway..I just have to work out harder and more intensely.

I will make it happen.

Thursday, September 20, 2007

Getting Enough Sleep..BUT...



Hey Fellow Fitness Bloggers.

Okay..so why is now that I am in bed by 8pm..usually asleep by 9:30pm if not earlier...why is it that I CAN'T get up to work out. I thought getting adequate sleep would help me and improve my morning workout. I don't understand. I'm gonna try to change this...It's just weird to me..I have always said that I am a person who can function on 5 hours sleep. And I worked out more when this was my sleep pattern. But I wonder if sleeping more is making my middle of the day Curves work out more EFFICIENT !

Okay everyone.. Pick Up your latest issue of Oxygen Magazine .. It's got some great fitness tips..and my fitness inspiration Maggie Diubaldo is on the cover. Her abs are FABULOUS. I think I'll sit this next to my alarm clock. Maybe I will get up then.

Also..tomorrow is "Report Card" day for me at "Curves" I get weighed and measured. So wish me luck in my progress.Hope it's not all in my head.

Fitness Tip Of The Day~ Okay if it is comfortable..sleep in your workout gear. I know many can't. But I find that If I have my stuff on, I find it easier to just slip on my shoes and just get right to it. If that's not comfortable, Have all your workout clothes in the room you are working out in. This way, there's no.."Where's my socks"..or "I can't find my sports bra" kinda thing.The one thing that makes for success is PLANNING AHEAD!

Tuesday, September 18, 2007

A Serious Pre-Workout Energy Drink

Hey fellow bloggers..

Well..I didn't do anything on Monday, but my Curves workout. I had a breakfast meeting, that through me off. But I got to bed early..and got up in time today to take my protein shake and fat burner, and truly to workout, but I snuggled with he hubby instead of getting up. I almost got up..I actually got up..but my hubby told me don't overdo it. Of course..that was an easy decision.

My day got even better as , I decided to slip on a pair of pants..that at one time..I couldn't even button..the last time I wore them..I got them buttoned,with a lot of sucking in and struggle, but they were uncomfortably tight...But I managed to wear them

TODAY....Up, On, Button..NO PROBLEM..Still tight..but not snugg, and not uncomfortable..and a little looser in the rear. Needless to say...I WAS HYPED!...I am very close to that time of the month...and I didn't even have the pre-bloating issue that I usually have before it starts. Or if this is bloating..this is GOOD NEWS

But...I did do my Curves workout..with one difference..I drank half a can , (as directed on the bottle) of Redline -Xtreme
WHOA!..this stuff is intense. As I was changing to go on my hour break to Curves and lunch..I felt tingling in my body..I mean legs, fingers , and toes..Needless to say..I worked out like a MAD WOMAN! It really made a difference in my intensity...I normally am afraid of energy drinks...I've never even had Red Bull. But I see why they are used. I won't make this a habit...cause your body can adjust to the point where they will have NO effect.. so I think I will use this on days when I feel a little sluggish and behind on my workout. I think it will kick me in gear.

Fitness Tip Of the Day.~ Use you personalized on line calender. I use my Google one that came with my G-Mail account. I can look at what I have to do the next day..put the DVD's in the right slots so there is no searching and wasting time.

I promise I will do my photos this weekend.

Sunday, September 16, 2007

Okay, So Today Is A Wash

well..I indulged today. I made a "Hearty" breakfast. I had something I haven't had in a while. HASH BROWNS. I try not to eat whites too much. But I did enjoy my hash browns with two eggs over medium, and an everything bagel today. The loo loo is when I was making my mini-cakes. I actually ate the one that broke apart. I never eat cakes or things like that at home. I usually savior such indulgences for eating out, so the meal is more special.

Ohh well..this is not an everyday, every week, or even every month thing. I van also justify it to myself, that I cooked it as health wise as I could. Being , instead of using cooking oil..I used Pam to fry them.

So..I vow to do better tomorrow. I will be making fresh fruit smoothies a way of life in the morning. So..I wish all of you luck. Please wish me Luck.

Trading One Compulsion, For Another

So... I am at home this Sunday..relaxing and enjoying the quiet. I'm baking some mini- cakes..it's a little side hobby/source of income that I do sometimes. I'll be the first to tell you, that when I smell baking sweets wafting through my home, it gives me the compulsion to eat EVERYTHING in sight..especially the sweets. But after doing the baking for a awhile. I know that it passes, and I have learned to control it for my health, and weights sake. I don't even lick those stray droppings of cake batter, or my cream cheese apple filling off the blender mixer tongs anymore. There are a TON of calories that can be taken in that way.

But what I am finding, is that when I have the compulsion to eat at odd and often unnecessary times...is now I have the compulsion to write, or jot things down in my blog. I don't know how healthy this is..but I do know that I don't eat as much in between . I think it helps me.
I want to work out today, but I'll be baking all day for my cousin, so I won't be able to get a good cardio session in until later when I don't have to watch the oven. I think I'll do a little weight training in between..and a lot of AB work. I;ll check in later.

Friday, September 14, 2007

WOW- WAKEY WAKEY

Hey everyone. I fell out last night. I did some Ab work. And from that point.

EXHAUSTION. I didn't workout this morning.but I strangleuy feel like this morning..that was a good thing. I think I am working out too much and too hard. I am in no way vastly overweight or obese by far. I just want about 25 extra pounds gone. But I think I could be over exerting myself. But I am going to start taking a little better care of how I choose my workouts.

So I'll check in later and let ya know how it goes.

Thursday, September 13, 2007

Ohhh...Ache Ache!!!

Well..I did an intense workout on my lunch hour at Curves . I think by the first of October,I'll be ready to do 3 circuits..which will be awesome for my goals. I'm not going to push it where I hurt myself...like I did banging the SAME knee at Curves, that I banged on my safes at work yesterday. But I will be pushing my limits of exertion as much as possible.

I came home and did strictly ab work.Not much to tell tonight, except I got a funny spasm in my back. I hope it's gone by morning.

Water Intake today.. 4 and 1/2 liters..I will do this for another week. And then I'll add another liter and a half,

My Dream Swimsuit



One of the reasons I workout..and hopefully something I can look forward to wearing is this lovely black one piece by Musotica

Better Today


Hey Bloggers and Workout Warriors

Well..this day is starting out a little better. I got up, took my whey protein and my fat burner. I
did Turbo Jam's Cardio Party. Not all of it. But enough to get me going and sweating. I feel like I did good considering I banged my knee twice on my safe at work. I thought I would totally FLAKE OUT and use that as an excuse this morning...But I didn't ...and ya know why??? Yesterday..as you know I told you all my pants from my suit fit looser. But what made me even prouder, was the shirt I was wearing was loose in the sides as well. And to add icing on the cake..After I ate my lunch, my pants and body didn't feel bloated and stuffed. And it usually feels that way no matter how little I eat. My pants were still loose after lunch..and needless to say..I was quite pleased. Another reason.

My Girl Maggie . In wanting to have ripped abs, and a great body. I am learning that the body NEEDS sustenance. Starvation is NOT going to make it happen. Muscle mass needs protein .I thought I was eating enough. I wasn't over indulging..but for all the working out I'm doing, I wasn't eating enough. I felt nauseous all day yesterday. But when I got home and ate. I started to feel better.

So..I'm going to focus on making sure I NEVER miss breakfast, working up to 8 liters of water a DAY (must invest stock in Summer's Eve, cause I'll be buying a warehouse full of feminine "refreshing wipes" if that's the case), getting my in between snacks . I am also going to have to buy a food scale , so I can start to measure my portions.

I'll let ya know how the rest of the day works out..and how the knee feels.Until later.

Wednesday, September 12, 2007

Okay...Just A Weird Day



You got the gist of how I was feeling earlier. Well..I managed to do an intense workout at Curves today on my lunch hour. But I still went through most of the day feeling nauseous. I drank 4 liters of water in the 9to 5 span I was at work.

If I drink any more water....I'll DROWN!...I'm so tired of peeing. But I'm trying to work my way up to eight liters a day. I'm trying to go by the techniques used by Maggie Diubaldo , my favorite fitness model, and inspiration body. That's her above.I am so OBSESSED with the look of her body.

I know my goals are lofty..but I figured, why go through all the work for only mediocre results.
So I am taking it easy this evening, due to my sick feeling. But I think the problem is I need to eat a more well rounded breakfast. The say the right breakfast will kickstart your metabolism
I will be following this advice.

Until tomorrow morning.

Disappointment & Encouragement

Okay..I don't know what is wrong with me. But I got up..took my fat burner and my whey protein. I laid back down. I got up before five and went to workout. I couldn't do it. I just wasn't feeling it. And it makes me angry and disappointed in myself. But I still feel nauseous. I'll see what I feel like at 11 o'clock.

On the good side..Today I put on my suit..and well..let's just say...the pants AREN'T as snug. Now..I want to believe that all the working out is paying off ..slowly but surely. But I also must admit, that the last time I wore them..it was that time of the month, and I was a bit bloated...But still..it's something that encourages me. And my co-worker said my stomach looks like it's going down.

GAWD ...I hope that's true.

Until this evening

Tuesday, September 11, 2007

THE BIGGEST LOSER

Okay..my favorite reality show is back on..and it is just another form of inspiration for me to get up and make it happen.

I encourage all to tune in.

NOT HAPPENING THIS EVENING

I swear..I'm not flaking out. But I feel a little nauseous right now, and my knee is bothering me. The knee is my fault, as I worked really hard at Curves today, and forgot to take my glucosamine tablets before. But , I think I'm a little car sick from the trip home. So I'm not gonna push it tonight.

I'm gonna start giving out little fitness tips that help me out, that may help you as well. Please give me some. I need all the help I can get, so all of your tips would be appreciated.

Fit Tip Of The Day~ If you are going to work out after work when you get home. Change clothes at work if possible. Searching for your workout gear takes away minutes that may provide the smallest distraction. This way..when I get home All I have to do, is sit down my bags and start my workout.

Burn It Tuesday

Okay...I have to get my sleep patterns in order. Yesterday , I couldn't get up to workout from the night before, because there was no way I could be properly rested for a 4:30Am workout with only three hours of sleep. So I came home , worked out, ate something, and went to bed at 9:00p.m. I was sure I was asleep by 9:30p.m. Around 1:30a.m it starts to rain. HARD...and well I couldn't go back to sleep.

So I got up at 4a.m...took my fat burner, and my Whey Protein drink and laid back down. I got up around 4:45, and put on my workout clothes, and proceeded to do "Turbo Jam's Cardio Party-1, and Slim 'N6's Slim "N6Pack ab routine.

Right now, I'm sweating like crazy. I didn't make it through the entire 45 minutes of Cardio Party. But I feel good. Even though I didn't get a full 7-8 hours of rest...I have a feeling that my body crashing at 9:30...HARD really replenished my body. I still need to get my sleep patterns together though.

I had to get this out. I'm going to do more ab work on my stability ball now. So I'll be on later to let yu know about the rest of my fitness for the day.

Monday, September 10, 2007

A Slow Start For Monday

Hey fellow Fitness Bloggers

Well , my only frustration today is that I didn't work out this morning. I couldn't get to sleep last night. I swear I think I laid in bed til 1:30 a.m. with my eyes closed and not at all asleep. So there was no way I was getting up at 4.30 am to do my workout. But I did make up for it in intensity at my 11 o'clock half hour at Curves.

It's 6.09 as I am typing this at home, and I am about to do Slim N' 6's "Ramp It Up" so. I'll get with all of you later.

Remember...Nothing worthwhile will EVER COME TO US EASY!

Sunday, September 9, 2007

On This Relaxing Sunday.

Well...another weekend gone. But I manged to get a little extra burn in. I did P90X stretch for about 30 minutes. did about 30 minutes of Ab-Work on my stability ball..and I did Turbo Jam's 20 minute video.

I need to do all my ab exercises on the stability ball. The reason ..being flat on the floor is hard for me..for 2 reasons.
1- My range of motion is limited . The bal gives me a wider , more expansive range of motion.
2~ Most ab exercises tell you to lay your back FLAT on the floor. Well you know how we black chicks usually have the bottom area that curves OUTWARD. So when you do what ever crunch or sit up. you back is not FLAT on the floor EVER. The ball allows me to do the exercise properly with the correct form.

So to any of you out there wondering what you can do about getting that correct form when doing ab exercises. I suggest you get a stability ball. Look at these items on OxygenFit

What did I eat? Well

Morning
2-Burn 60 fat burners
1 Banana

1.5 Liter if Fiji water

Lunch
8 Grape tomatoes and3 artichoke hearts with a tbsp of of Asian Sesame dressing.

1 Burn 60 fat burner.

I haven't ate dinner yet. But I don't feel hungry right now. Probably a sald and a chicken breast..Or maybe just a bowl of Raisin Bran.

My Calender for tomorrow.
4;30am ~Turbo Jam Cardio Party-45 Minutes
P90X Ab Rppier X -16Minutes
11:00am~ Curves Circuit- 30 Minutes
6:30pm~ Slim 'N 6 Ramp It Up -45 minutes.

Wish me luck in making it through ALL of Them
But I think I'm off the pc for the day. So ..UNTIL tomorrow.

Good luck in your fitness goals

Sunday Musings~ What Inspires Me

It's 10:40 Am on Sunday. I still have an hour before my Sunday Yoga and stretch session. So I thought I'd put down what inspires me to work out and eat better. It's like a top 10 countdown.

10~ Tucking In My Shirt... Although I am not extremely overweight. I have that little lower pooch in in my lower abs. And I hate it. I would like to be able to tuck in my shirt, be it in a skirt or a pair of pants without that sticking out.

9~ Not Trying On Clothes...Of course when I was younger, with a hot bod I never tried anything on. Cause I knew it would look good. I wasn't self conscious, cause the body was right. Now I hate shopping. Cause not only am I disappointed with how my body looks..but I HATE trying on clothes. It's annoying. I'm one of those "Is this my size? Wrap it Up, I'm Out the door on to real life" kind of women. I wanna be able to get it, and GO!

8~ To Wear A Badgley Mischka Gown... I am not a total Fashionista. But I do love clothes. And my favorite designers are Badgley Mischka. I love their line of "Modern Vintage" gowns that I see at the Oscar's and Golden Globes. They are just classic and beautiful, sexy , yet tasteful. My hubby says if I get to my goal, he'll buy me one.

7~ Vanity...I would be LYING if I said I wasn't vain. I AM. And there is the awful truth. I had grey hair coming in, and I pretended like it wasn't bothering me..BUT IT WAS!!!.. and there you have it. I miss being able to walk into a room full of people, and totally feel all the eyes in the room on me. I use to hate the sneers and "whisper whisper" of other women. Now , actually ..I long for it. I know that's wrong. But I had the body to wear what I wanted, and I did. I could feel the attraction of men from left to right, to up to down. I use to get hit on so much, that I got annoyed with it, cause it seemed so constant. And now..DOESN'T HAPPEN THAT OFTEN!..and I realize, that I should have enjoyed it when men and some women hit on me. I know that as I get older, that won't happen as much. Let's face it we live in a society that worships "YOUTH". I mean. I've been with my hubby for almost 15 years now. But I do like knowing that others find me attractive and sexy.

6~ The Possibility Of A Long Life Span . The people in my family tend to live a long time. My paternal great grandfather died at 96. And he smoked a pack of cigs til the day he died. My Paternal great grandmother lived til she was in her nineties, and she died of a genetic kidney disease that runs in my family. There are so many people who lived until there 80's and 90's in my family on BOTH SIDES. And we are talking people who lived on cigarettes , alcohol, and the standard soul food diet so pervasive in the Black community. So genetics is on my side.I figured, heck, With the knowledge we have now about healthy diet and exercise, if I don't meet with an untimely accident or a catastrophic illness, I could very well live to see 100 and beyond.

5~ Oxygen Magazine. I love this magazine. Unlike "Shape" and "Fitness" mags, I love that the magazine focuses on women who have strong bodies, and healthy eating habits. It doesn't slip in make-up and beauty ads in on you. It's all exercise, supplements and healthy eating. The women aren't sticks. This is my magazine of choice .Check Out The website

4~ Fitness Model Maggie Diubaldo...her body is an inspiration. I know most women like the stick thin models of Cosmo & Vogue magazine. But Maggie is a frequent Oxygen cover girl. And her body is DA BOMB in my opinion. I know most women are afraid of lifting weights, cause they don't want to look too masculine. But for me, Maggie is the perfect example , that a woman's body can not only be tight , healthy, strong and MUSCULAR..but FEMININE as well. I use to be afraid of weights . But she shows me that strength and muscles are beautiful. She really makes me want to work.

3~ Victor,My Husband... Why he inspires me. His love and understanding. He is real and truthful with me, without being hurtful. Of course when we met, I was young with a hot body. I worked out , I looked good. I could wear anything . Then I got pregnant ,which changed my body and metabolism (I use to have the metabolism of a hamster on crack). I miscarried at 5 1/2 months in April of 1997. And all subsequent attempts to conceive have failed. So we have no children. But I still have the weight . And through it all..everyday Victor calls me beautiful . He calls me on the phone, or leaves me a message that always starts with "Hey beautiful". But he never lies to me. If I'm wearing something that isn't complimenting my body, He'll tell me. In all this time. Whenever we discuss weight loss and exercise, he always tells me. "Just tighten up and tone the middle", I love every inch of you.But if you want to wear certain clothes that's the only thing you need to work on "..And that's the thing. I'm a realist. I know esthetics matters. Too many women believe that they shouldn't. But I'm not going to fool myself into believing that my hubby , on first seeing me thought .."Look, there's someone I could have intellectually stimulating conversations with for the REST OF MY LIFE". Of course not. Not that I'm an idiot or anything. I am fairly intelligent ..at times. But unlike a lot of men, Victor would never call me "Fat" or make fun of me or say things that demean me and my self esteem. To many men believe that those tactics work. I want him to have the body he fell in love with again. By being understanding and supportive, he has earned that from me. A man who would do the opposite has not earned a woman making a lifestyle change only to please him.My man has earned all my efforts , because of his love and continued support.

2~ My HEALTH & STRENGTH. ..I work in a bank. So I see all people of all ages and backgrounds everyday. I have to look at ID's all day long. And I am so amazed when I see people younger than me, who are obviously not healthy. I'll be 36 on October 9th. So you can best believe the shock in my mind when I see overweight young people . I mean OBESE. I wonder what there lives will be like when they are older. Also when people come in , and the air is on full blast, yet they are sweating profusely , and I KNOW they haven't been outside, cause they work in the building. Then I see people like one of my favorite customers. She'll be 102 in Febuary. She wears her high heels, has ALL her faculties, and can tell you what's in her accounts to the penny. Even though her grandson escorts her in sometimes, it's usually only on the days he gets paid, and she usually handles ALL her business on her own. I want to be like her. I don't want to be a physical burden to any one. I don't have children, and I am unable to have them. So I probably won't have anyone to look after me if and when I get old. I know I will have to do it myself.

1~ MYSELF. I love how working out gets my endorphins going. I love how good I feel after a great workout. That natural high that comes along with it. It may all sound cliche', but cliche's are usually true. I feel like I can do anything when I workout. I know that this is something that when it's done, it's truly FOR ME & ME ALONE...Plus I want to show off my beautiful tattoo on my lower back.

Well those are the things that inspire me. What inspires you? Please tell me. Some of yours may turn into mine. And then we have inspired each other.

My Fat Burner Dilemma

So...I'm not saying that I'm the healthiest eater...But I do eat healthy. I don't eat fried foods (except when my Hubby fry's fish, He is the BEST at fried fish. Especially salmon and tilapia), I gave up white's (white bread, white rice, potatoes). I don't drink pop (or soda as other parts of the country call it)..except when I go out. I rarely drink alcohol.My high fiber cereals that I eat are usually low in sugar like Peace Cereal Raspberry Ginger Or Kashi Go lean Crunch
Or good ole' Kelloog's Raisin Bran. I may even sprinkle a little extra "Fiber Sure" in it, to get that extra added fiber. I try to drink water all day. I am up to 2 1.5 liter bottles of Fiji water a day. My goal at this point is to be able to put away 4. At this point, I have dropped all sugary juices from my diet and when I want flavor, well..I should own stock in Crystal Light , especially their Raspberry Green Tea , that stuff is GOOD. I eat only lean meats. I don't eat a lot of processed foods, if any now that I think about it. I eat my largest meal in the middle of the day, right after my workout at Curves . Which is usually ,fruit or a salad. Or even a sandwich on whole grain. Lean meat like chicken or turkey breast. And my in between snacks is usually nuts or an apple. So I eat right. I don't do the whole, scale measuring thing..although I am seriously considering that too. But I try to maintain some sort of portion control, cause I really HATE the feeling of being full, It makes you lethargic and sluggish.

That whole long spiel is basically coming to the point , that I don't have a lot of energy, and I need additional help burning fat. I want to take a fat burner, and I am bouncing between Lipo-6 or BSN .I have no idea why my energy is low. I know I am trying too hard , and may be working out too much. But I want my energy levels to be high, without stimulants. I normally avoid things like caffeine and ephedra. Quite frankly, I'm afraid of Red Bull. I'm a hyper person as it is, and well I just find the idea of me hyped up on stimulants to be quite frightening . But if I could just get something in me, where I can get the full impact of my workouts, without sugar, and certainly without crashing totally afterwards, I would be happy.

Do any of you have any suggestions?

Saturday, September 8, 2007

Relaxing Saturday

Today was my relaxing Saturday. Not much workout today. I did the 20 minute Turbo Jam workout, and about 35 minutes of Yoga.

Off and on all day..while watching TV, I did different ab exercises . I try to make my weekends my rest periods. But the stretching of Yoga is very calming as well as energizing and invigorating.

Well , that's all for today. Good luck with your workouts.

Friday, September 7, 2007

T.G.I.F.

Okay...so today I slacked off. I got up at about 5.30am. I figured I'd get an hour in...then I realized, I had a doc's appt, and I would be going into work late.

I went right back to sleep. By the time I got to work, I got in too late for my afternoon stint at Curves. And I am just taking it easy right now.

So basically no workout today. I think my body needed the rest anyway. So i'm feeling good. Tomorrow is my Yoga day. I'll let you know how it goes.

Thursday, September 6, 2007

So...How was this day????

Well..I got up at 4:20am to start my workout. I had P90x's Kenpo karate and Slim 'N 6Pack ab workout. I like the Kenpo workout. Although I admit. I haven't made it through the whole video. The reason right now..It is an ASS KICKER.. for sure. SO I will let you all know when I finallymake it through the whole video. that will be a day to celebrate. But another thing in where I workout. My living room has carpet. And though I have the space and can see the TV to workout from the dining room , since they are adjacent..the problem there is the ceramic tile. It's really hard to do the boxing moves correctly. Considering you are constantly twisting your ankles, I can feel I'm not getting the full effect of the workout. Don't get me wrong..I do what I can. But I will never risk an injury. So I have to check into buying some sort of mat to stand on..at least for this workout. I like the kicking and Yoga stretching involved. I did about 25 minutes..So I have a ways to go before I'll feel totally accomplished. But It's a start. I did about 7 minutes of the 11 minute ab workout. I figure, as my abs get stronger, I'll be able to finish it sooner than the Kenpo Video.

I went to work. And on my 11am lunch hour I did an intense 30 minute circuit at Curves.

I came home. I tried to do "Burn It Up...but that is a kick-ass workout. I did about 25 minutes of an hour workout. and then I did some ab work on the floor.

So that was my workouts for today. And all though I didn't complete all the videos I , I still did something..and I did more than many people do at all. I will not slam myself, cause I know the effort is there, and it will take time to get where I want to be.

So if anyone reads this..don't be hard on me. But I do need some positive reinforcement.

Until tomorrow.

So Why DId I Create A Workout Blog

The potential to embarrass myself never occurred to me. I mean seriously. To post pictures of my genetically challenged physique, tell folks I don't known how I eat all the wrong stuff, and show how little will power I have was just NOT enough of a frightening prospect.

Actually. I love being on the computer. I love reading and communicating with others. And I love putting words down. So I thought this would be the perfect way to incorporate it into my workout. This way...Not only can I hold myself accountable , but I can also check my progress to see how well I'm doing. Or NOT doing.

I've been working out off and on for years. I do admit. I am a bit lazy. I like so many other women, had a great body young. Got pregnant, and well you know the rest. Now..I am in no way grossly overweight, or obese. In fact with the right clothes, most people actually wonder why I bother to make so much effort...But actually, it's my midsection.

YES, YES , YES...I am AB OBSESSED!. Like so many others, I too long for the six pack look. Hey, I'll take the 4pack..At this rate..I'll take the look of the plastic rings that hold them together. I use to have a lovely flat stomach. But my 1997 pregnancy, and resulting miscarriage at 51/2 months left me with extra weight I just can't shake.

I want to be able to put on a pair of pants, and actually TUCK IN my shirt, and not see the lower pooch. Mine doesn't extend so far out, that I can't see my "HooHaa"But it's just enough to annoy me.So I am making extra effort in what I eat, my workouts, and everything in between. Starting yesterday..I made myself a workout schedule on my Google Calender. All the way through the month of November. In the morning, when your half awake, trying to figure out which workout DVD takes too much time and easily distracts me.I promised myself that If I stick with this scheduled, I will buy myself something. So that's one piece of motivation.

Second is this blog. ACCOUNTABILITY...ACCOUNTABILITY...ACCOUNTABILITY!

That is the name of this game. I must be accountable. I must enjoy myself, but I must see my progress. So will be posting everyday. Or I SHOULD BE posting everyday. What I did, good or bad..What I didn't do, good or bad. But I must see my journey in words. I think it will help me.

Okay..READY ..SET....

GO BACK To Bed